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22 January 2012 @ 02:31 pm
Decided to do an update. I know. I seem to be getting horrible at doing this...

Haven't REALLY been busy. Besides getting the baby room done and trying to start up my photography business.

Got some business cards made, have a smugmug now, and took the cards to a few of the local businesses in town.

I REALLY need some jobs....

We're tight on money... which sucks.

Heart and Soul Photography

That's the link to my SmugMug. Basically my official website.
I feel embarrassed doing this, BUT...if ya'll could spread the word of my site that would be SUPER.

Even if you don't live in NC because you can order prints and what not... so yeah. Much appreciated.

ALSO I have a FB page for my photography as well.

Heart and Soul Photography FB

12 October 2011 @ 12:39 pm
Hey ya'll!!!

A lot has been happening. Sorta. Ummmm. Everything is going good between me and James. We were going through a rough patch, but things are starting to work themselves out. Which is GOOD.

Rexy killed Smokey aka the gray kitten... really truth be told. I'm kinda over it. Granted if I am the one to ever catch her back there again, kittens or no kittens, she will be dead. She killed 4 kittens since I got back from IN and GOD knows how many she killed when I was up there. So yeah.

Today I am 10 weeks and 2 days pregnant. It's been interesting. Morning sickness makes me ANGRY. Literally. It's probably the worst thing EVER. Luckily the OB gave me some pills to keep the nausea away, but still sometimes it hits me. I've been told numerous remedies. Saltines, which I got some and they had somewhat helped. Then I was told that Ginger Ale helps or even Ginger Tea. So. I noticed today that they have Ginger Ale that tastes like green tea. I bought that. We'll see if that also helps.

Hmmmm. What else. Mom is super excited about me being pregnant. It's cute, but then again I am their only child and this will be their first grandchild. So I can somewhat understand why she's so thrilled.

We got our first baby thing about a weekish ago. It's a stroller. :D It's for two, but a car seat can be placed in the back one, which is SUPER convenient. Got it at a yard sale. They had bought it for probably 150 dollars, were going to sell it for 75, but took it down to 65. :) They also had a crib, but it was just a regular one. I have my eyes on one of them that convert into a regular bed when the time comes. Personally I think it will be a HUGE money saver in the long run. ... SO MANY THINGS TO GET IN THE NEXT 9 MONTHS.

And last, but not least. I leave you lovelies with some pictures. :)Pretty things this way.Collapse )
Current Mood: contentcontent
06 September 2011 @ 09:03 am
So. Yesturday. Rexy, next door neighbors dog that had already killed two of my outdoor kittens, got loose again because her fucking owners are RETARDED.

She killed the three kittens of Mama’s…. Yeah. I heard her out back. Ran outside, WHILE BEING PREGNANT. Oh yeah. Did I forget to mention it was raining. Tried to get her, then she ran under the shed.

Started attacking the kittens. I went to the inside of the yard, pulled all the shit away from the side of the shed trying to get to her while screaming at the top of my lungs.

James came out, thus followed shadow while the gate was open. He said, “Stop her.” Ran toward Shadow, slipped and fell on my ass, WHILE BEING PREGNANT. Got her before she ran out.

Told James to try and get Rexy because at the time I didn’t know if she’d gotten to all three of the kittens. I take Shadow inside. Oh yeah. IT WAS STILL RAINING. I go back out and go to the shed, picking up a stick. Basically guarding it.

James tells me to go back in. I say no because I don’t want her to do anymore damage. Not knowing she already did everything she could damage wise. Finally I get her. Don’t even pick her up gently. Literally just grab onto her collar and lift. Hoping that she would fucking choke to death.

Gave her to James because if he HADN’T been there to take her or been there at all I would have killed that mother fucking stupid dog.

The thing is… These people don’t like their dog. K. Well. James took Rexy back and I guess he said something along the lines of they need to either take better care of her to keep in inside the fence… Like I don’t know FIX THE FUCKING FENCE. Or get rid of her. So they are going to let James take her tomorrow somewhere.

He’s going to just take her somewhere and shoot her. I fucking wish I could do it…. She’s nothing but a kitten killer.

I don’t need this stress or even physical pain while being pregnant. Yay to owners of pets that don’t give a shit about them or the people the live around.
02 September 2011 @ 08:10 pm
Guess what...

Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
31 May 2011 @ 10:52 am
It's been a LONG time, but I've been super busy.
Got a new Nikon. D3100. Better pixels and better movie mode.

Might be traveling a lot this summer. :)
Gonna go get True Blood season 3 today. :)

And have had two shoots. Haven't gotten any from the first. The photographer said it'd be 1.5 - 3 weeks till I'd see them. :(

Hope you enjoyed.
Current Mood: awakeawake
25 March 2011 @ 01:49 pm
So lately I've been watching Lost because I NEVER did when it was "popular". But. It isn't so bad. Right now I'm on episode 19 of the first season. And counting.
13 March 2011 @ 09:13 pm
James left to go overseas today.
I should be use to it by now.

But I'm not.

I can't stop crying. :(
02 March 2011 @ 05:46 pm
It's a good time for a change.

Don't ya think???

Changed up the header a little. Pictures are of yours truely. <3
05 February 2011 @ 12:35 pm
So the one day the guy came in to put in the mantle James Sr. again failed to grab Shadow's collar before opening the door and she took off.

I got too stressed out, came in after trying to find her, then proceeded to tell Donna, "It's been nice having you guys here, but I want you guys out of the house."

Last week in November some relatives of Donna and James Sr. came up from SC, picked up Donna and took her up to Indiana with them. I thought that the reason James Sr wanted to go up to IN during Christmas was to see the kids.

Then after Christmas he proceeds to tell me that Donna isn't going to come back to NC. I was like, "Oh." Then mentally thought to myself that it was because of what I finally said to her face.

I went up to IN since I didn't get to for Christmas the first-ish week in Jan. 3-4 days before I leave James calls me and tells me that his mom and dad are planning on staying up there from now on, but that in March they're going to get a ride back here to get the rest of their stuff.

Needless to say. It's been a LONG time coming. ... Too bad James leaves for overseas again in March.......................
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
05 December 2010 @ 02:20 pm
Over the past few years I've been through a lot. Sometimes it feels like I've been through too much. Haven't really had anyone to talk to. No one to truely understand or care what I'm going though.

The fact of the matter is... that I REALLY wish I could have the marriage I'd dreamt for.

Instead. What I got is permanent in-law house guests in my own home.
What makes matters worse is that no one cared at all about how I would feel about it. No one asked me. No one took two seconds to say, "Do you want them to stay?" or even, "How long would you want them to stay?"

I think that's the thing that hurts me the most. Is that no one cared about what I would feel or think about it.

I've been hurting for 4 years and no one cares.